I only have a few minutes before I have to go to work so here are some pics, I'll blog later. :D
Monday, November 8, 2010
Monday, September 27, 2010
Utah
So I don't have all the details just yet...but it looks as though we may be moving to Utah for a few years. Cesar's company just won a bid on a federal job, he's an electrician, and they need lots of man power. This would be great for his career advancement and a great adventure for the rest of us! I will stay here to let the kiddos finish out the school year, so the kids and I wouldn't move until the end of May or early June. Cesar may have to go as early as January or February. I'm nervous and excited but I think it will be a great experience for us as a family! I'll give more details as I get them...
Monday, August 23, 2010
What if...?
So at church this week a man spoke to us saying that he's been in a bit of a "funk" recently. His father passed a couple of months ago and he's been having to go through his estate on the weekends. He also said that he felt like this has been building up for the last couple of years and that he has had some difficult times. Now comes my favorite part.....he had decided to wait for a sign from God. That his life was heading in the right direction and that he was still doing what God wants him to do. So, while he was driving on Saturday he noticed a board/sign outside of another church..."what if God is waiting for a sign from you?"
I don't know about anyone else, but that was such a great moment for me! God is working all around us. He is constantly giving us "signs", if that's what you want to call it. But just what if God is waiting for a sign from us? or me specifically? Just goes to show that sometimes we, or I, need to be the ones giving God a sign. One that says "I'm here. I'm listening. I will walk in the path you have laid before me."
One more thing...as I was telling another friend of mine this story, she told me about a sign she saw and loved...
CH_ _ CH , What's missing? UR (you are)
LOVE IT!!!!
I don't know about anyone else, but that was such a great moment for me! God is working all around us. He is constantly giving us "signs", if that's what you want to call it. But just what if God is waiting for a sign from us? or me specifically? Just goes to show that sometimes we, or I, need to be the ones giving God a sign. One that says "I'm here. I'm listening. I will walk in the path you have laid before me."
One more thing...as I was telling another friend of mine this story, she told me about a sign she saw and loved...
CH_ _ CH , What's missing? UR (you are)
LOVE IT!!!!
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
a page from my journal...
Sunday August 15, 2010
Today at church, Pastor Jim had an "alter call." He said he wanted people to come down and share their names and how long they had been walking with God. I wanted so badly to walk up to him. To say my name. My heart was beating so hard I could hardly breathe. I was terrified and knew I would not go. What would people think of me? Surly they could tell, just by looking at me, that I had not been walking with God in my life. I've made some weak attempts, but nothing serious. How could I walk up there and stand next to the man that was first in line, before the Pastor was even done talking. He proudly announced that he had been walking with God for 80 years! I immediately start my internal dialogue...'I'll just send an email when I get home. I'll join some groups at church and then I'll do it...'
As I stood there telling myself why I can't go up there, why I'm not worthy to go up there, for what seemed like hours a woman walked up and shook his hand. Then two more young girls. I began to wonder why more people weren't walking up there. We were all there to worship God right? There must be more than these handful of people willing to walk up and announce how long they had been walking with God....Pastor Jim said to us, "If you can't do it here with all of these people supporting you, how will you do it outside of church?"
So, I started walking....
What on earth was I going to say???Another young girl walked up right before me. I thought I had gotten lucky and could just sneak off to the side. Then Pastor Jim reached out his hand to me....."What's your name?"....I had to say it twice because I could hardly breathe...."How long have you been walking with God?" There it was...I suddenly realized I had been avoiding that question for most of my life. I didn't know what to say.
The tears came immediately, just as they are now as I write this. The tears were streaming down my face....I simply said "I'm still trying"
It was then at that moment that I realized I've been on this "emotional cliff" for so long, that I don't want to try to hide it anymore. It was then that I realized that I need to give my life to Jesus. To let Jesus organize the inner chaos that I have been living in for so many years.
Pastor Jim sat me down in the front pew and asked my why was I feeling like this right now. I told him that I feel like there are so many "bad seeds" that have been planted in my heart and I just can't fight it anymore. I need to give control to God. I am tired and weak.
Pastor Jim held one of my hands in his and placed another hand on my back and prayed over me. I don't honestly remember the words that he said, but I remember the calm washing over me. My breathing slowed, my heart stopped pounding so loud, and I felt peaceful. I felt just a little bit stronger.
After we prayed we walked up the isle to introduce Pastor Jim to my husband. I have no idea what Pastor Jim said because it was in spanish. But I got the general idea. And as they were speaking another man came to me with tears in his eyes and said, "I'm still trying too", he prayed over me. Again, I felt just a little bit stronger. We hugged and said good bye. We then went to pick up the kids and as we were loading the kids in the car a young couple came to me and introduced themselves. They invited us to AWANA's and welcomed us to the church. They too have 4 kiddos! They were kind to me and my family. I felt a little bit stronger.
On the way home, I told my husband "I want to be a better wife and Mother. I'm going to call and ask for a mentor to help me through these first steps in my new life." He simple said, "Ok, whatever you need to do. I'm here"
This was my prayer.
Thank you God for giving me the strength and courage I so desperately needed today. For filling me with desire to love you and know you. Thank you god for giving me a path to walk on and the knowledge that I will not walk alone but beside you every step of the way. That although this will be a difficult journey, I know you are there with me. Thank you God for loving me.
Thank you to everyone for reading this. For letting me share this very personal experience with you. Thank you for your love and support. I love you all...
Today at church, Pastor Jim had an "alter call." He said he wanted people to come down and share their names and how long they had been walking with God. I wanted so badly to walk up to him. To say my name. My heart was beating so hard I could hardly breathe. I was terrified and knew I would not go. What would people think of me? Surly they could tell, just by looking at me, that I had not been walking with God in my life. I've made some weak attempts, but nothing serious. How could I walk up there and stand next to the man that was first in line, before the Pastor was even done talking. He proudly announced that he had been walking with God for 80 years! I immediately start my internal dialogue...'I'll just send an email when I get home. I'll join some groups at church and then I'll do it...'
As I stood there telling myself why I can't go up there, why I'm not worthy to go up there, for what seemed like hours a woman walked up and shook his hand. Then two more young girls. I began to wonder why more people weren't walking up there. We were all there to worship God right? There must be more than these handful of people willing to walk up and announce how long they had been walking with God....Pastor Jim said to us, "If you can't do it here with all of these people supporting you, how will you do it outside of church?"
So, I started walking....
What on earth was I going to say???Another young girl walked up right before me. I thought I had gotten lucky and could just sneak off to the side. Then Pastor Jim reached out his hand to me....."What's your name?"....I had to say it twice because I could hardly breathe...."How long have you been walking with God?" There it was...I suddenly realized I had been avoiding that question for most of my life. I didn't know what to say.
The tears came immediately, just as they are now as I write this. The tears were streaming down my face....I simply said "I'm still trying"
It was then at that moment that I realized I've been on this "emotional cliff" for so long, that I don't want to try to hide it anymore. It was then that I realized that I need to give my life to Jesus. To let Jesus organize the inner chaos that I have been living in for so many years.
Pastor Jim sat me down in the front pew and asked my why was I feeling like this right now. I told him that I feel like there are so many "bad seeds" that have been planted in my heart and I just can't fight it anymore. I need to give control to God. I am tired and weak.
Pastor Jim held one of my hands in his and placed another hand on my back and prayed over me. I don't honestly remember the words that he said, but I remember the calm washing over me. My breathing slowed, my heart stopped pounding so loud, and I felt peaceful. I felt just a little bit stronger.
After we prayed we walked up the isle to introduce Pastor Jim to my husband. I have no idea what Pastor Jim said because it was in spanish. But I got the general idea. And as they were speaking another man came to me with tears in his eyes and said, "I'm still trying too", he prayed over me. Again, I felt just a little bit stronger. We hugged and said good bye. We then went to pick up the kids and as we were loading the kids in the car a young couple came to me and introduced themselves. They invited us to AWANA's and welcomed us to the church. They too have 4 kiddos! They were kind to me and my family. I felt a little bit stronger.
On the way home, I told my husband "I want to be a better wife and Mother. I'm going to call and ask for a mentor to help me through these first steps in my new life." He simple said, "Ok, whatever you need to do. I'm here"
This was my prayer.
Thank you God for giving me the strength and courage I so desperately needed today. For filling me with desire to love you and know you. Thank you god for giving me a path to walk on and the knowledge that I will not walk alone but beside you every step of the way. That although this will be a difficult journey, I know you are there with me. Thank you God for loving me.
Thank you to everyone for reading this. For letting me share this very personal experience with you. Thank you for your love and support. I love you all...
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
1 Peter 5:7
"Cast all your cares upon him, for he cares for you." Good job guys! Day two and going strong... the kids love VBS!!!
Monday, July 19, 2010
Psalm 139:14
"I will praise You, because I have been remarkably and wonderfully made. Your works are wonderful, and I know this very well."
This is the verse that the kids had to memorize for VBS today. All the kids at my house have it down and I KNOW the kiddos at Michele's have it done!!! lol Thanks for taking the kids to VBS for me Michele...the kiddos are having a great time with their cousins!
This is the verse that the kids had to memorize for VBS today. All the kids at my house have it down and I KNOW the kiddos at Michele's have it done!!! lol Thanks for taking the kids to VBS for me Michele...the kiddos are having a great time with their cousins!
Saturday, July 10, 2010
What's for dinner?
This time I tried fried chicken for the first time. I found this quirky recipe using cream of chicken soup to soak them in and adding corn starch to get a little extra crisp to them. I think it turned out great...No, not the most healthy meal, but definately reminds me of great childhood memories. My house smells of fried chicken and homemade bread....LOVE IT! I also made my own tortillas the other night. Need to do some fine tuning on those, but they still tasted good. This is my second attempt at the bread and this time I cut the sugar from 2/3 c to 1/3 c and it was even better. I'll add that 1/3 c back when I venture to making some kind of sweet breakfast bread. Mom and Dan were at work so Cesar took some over to their house...we'll see if they like it. :0 ) Hope you are all having a great weekend! Love you!!
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